Do you have Audio memories??
Memories that are indeliably linked to melodies and tunes and songs…such that the stirring of a note makes the memory wash over you in waves of nostalgia, longing or rememberance..for the person or place or experience.
I have lots of audio memories…some that I want to shake off and never visit again because they make me relive moments I have struggled to get over. And others, that I want to carefully pick, collect, wrap in soft cotton wool and put them in a treasure box…to be handled carefully and treated preciously…for they are the delicate breaths that suffuse life in me….
Here are some that get evoked with the below songs. Here is what I am reminded of…
Kya ghazab karte ho ji, pyar se darte ho ji…..a boy man I fell in love with one cold winter..who taught me to laugh freely and love the flavour of cinnamon…
Tere ishq mein baadal dhune mausam bune sadiyan gini lamhe chune…of a bewildered and anxious bus ride from dhaula kuan to punjabi bagh when I really wanted to go to Nehru place..because of a muddled head full of pain and a grieving heart full of hurt nd pain and tear blurredvision. Of not being able to think straight…
Desi girl…of a woman I know who is joyful and exuberant but wears a different mantle in office..
Meri jaan..mujhe jaan na ko meri jaan..of a beautiful person..a child woman..my friend of the soul..singing it slowly, surely and melodiously in a classroom full of stolid wooden benches and looking so fragile…
Aankhein teri itni haseen, ki inka aashiq main ban gaya hoon…of my doctor friend, who professed that she always imagines herself the subject of this song…as now I do too…
Piya basanti re…of my hostel room in the mornings..with the sunlight peeking through and the song playing incessantly (rewound a thousand times)…and especially of a day when I wore the grey saree..my heart full of joy, hope and surety in a beautiful future…
Bahon mein chale aao..humse sanam kya parda….of a strange night when I experienced that people could fade into the background…and it did not matter where you were but who you were..and of a person who has now become inextricably linked to my life..as out of reach…
Oh hansini meri hansini…of an office bay where it was played on someone’s comp...and the burst of pleasure in my heart
hai o mereya daadheya rabba…of pain and hurt and more pain and betrayal and longing and sacrifice and just numbness…
Rang rang tere rang rang mein…of a bright morning in spring when my heart almost exploded with happiness and anticipation. A pink morning.
I am alive..of days of reaffirming this to self..but not really believing.
Bin tere sanam…of the pure joy of deep friendship and abundance of wholesome affection.
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo…of a lohri bonfire and supreme loneliness..
Pehla nasha pehla khumar…of hours of admiring myself in the mirror imagining someone is singing for me..in my teenage years..yes, I wasn’t THAT much of a geek….
And this , the ultimate romantic number..how many many times I have fallen asleep in the cold nights of jammu, listening to this one and imagining my teenage self as the protagonist in it..It still remains my top rated romantic expression of attraction…and everytime I hear it, I smile with indulgence at the person I once was…
Zindagi bhar nahi bhoolegi wo barsaat ki raat
Ek anjaan hasina se mulaqat ki raat…..
Hai who reshmi zulfon se tapakta paani
Phool se gaalon pe rukne ko tarasta paani
Dil mein toofan uthate hue jazbaat ki raat
Zindagi bhar nahi bhoolegi
Surkh aanchal ko dabakar jo nichoda usne
Dil pe jalta hua ik teer sa chhoda usne
Kabhi dekhi na suni
Aise tilismaat ki raat
Zindagi bhar nahi bhoolegi
Dar ke bijli se achanak who lipatna uska
Aur phir sharm se balkha ke simatna uska
Aag paani mein lagate hue haalat ki raat
Zindagi bhar nahin bhoolegi..
Mere sapnon mein jo basti hai, who tasveer thi woh
Naujawaani ke haseen khwab ki taabeer thi who
Aasmanon se utar aayi thi jo raat ki raat
Zindagi bhar nahin bhoolegi
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